When do you feel like quitting?

Please read all the way to the end!!

It is important to be free to share these thoughts. Share them with those that need encouragement and understanding.

I WANT TO QUIT!!!!!

I WANT TO QUIT!

I’m so tired. There are days I feel so terrible that I can barely move. My bills are outrageous, and I could have purchased a new car with the funds I have spent these last many years on medications and doctor bills.

I WANT TO QUIT!

I spend hours and hours emailing and posting about important issues with little to no response. On top of that, there may be as many posts, articles and e-mails to read. It is never-ending. And there is no cream or sugar in my coffee.

I WANT TO QUIT!

I haven’t the time left in a day to email or call my friends. I can’t remember the last time I went to a movie or a party… and taking a vacation is all but impossible with so many people depending on my presence and I can’t afford to go.

I WANT TO QUIT!

I’ve spent time unburdening myself on-line with only one out of three sites resulting in great support and feedback. The site that produced the most was XXXXXXXX!!

I WANT TO QUIT!

I swear at myself for allowing myself to wallow in despair for so long and so often.

I WANT TO QUIT!

Because people just don’t understand my illness and have no idea how to help. They dump their platitudes on my ears with no real thought.

I WANT TO QUIT!

I hear whimpering in my sleep, have nightmares frequently….. Barely realizing they are coming from me and my sick brain.

I WANT TO QUIT!

Life is unbearable and why should I go on.

I WANT TO QUIT!

It is not like I don’t have enough of my own issues to worry about – but others have added to my load with their burdens and hurts.

I WANT TO QUIT!

I have trusted the wrong people – had faith and been heart broken…

I WANT TO QUIT!

I have been yelled at, called names, cussed at, harrassed, shoved and otherwise physically and emotionally abused by folks who have no idea what is wrong with me.

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… one day the clouds of depression miraculously open and a semi-normal life returns.

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… I realize why I feel so much better because friends or relatives who have reached out to befriend me again.

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… I fall back for months at a time only to be released again by life events that should not break me free but should deepen my despair. But these events do what I am amazed that they have done for me and my attitudes.

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… I find myself reviewing the poem – Footprints – and see my life reflecting through its words.

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… I ask a friend to meet with me as a faith/accountability partner and he agrees!

I WANT TO QUIT!

AND THEN… God brings me peace and forgiveness for my sinful thoughts and actions while in the valley of the shadow of death.

I WANT TO QUIT!

But I won’t. When I feel overwhelmed, I’ll look into my friend’s eyes and members of my church’s eyes and know they are there for me even when I feel as if there is no one on my side.

I WANT TO QUIT!

But not today.

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By Bergstedt and Associates Posted in Microsoft